let me cry

If the pain is not giving enough space,

it turns to anger.

And it will fight for making space for the pain.

Why it is so painful?

Because I truted you.

I believed in you.

I gave you so much from me.

I gave you too much from me.

Much more than, what I could give you.

Disappointed, sad and painful

to realize,

that I saw you in the way

how I wanted to see you.

I gave you so much,

because I wanted so much.

I was blind,

I could not see it then.

After soo long time

after everything is now broken

and nothing is left

I can see it.

It is so painful.

It is so sad.

What I can do now is to cry for the pain

and welcome the new point of view.

let me cry

let me cry

let me be angry

let me be angry with me.

let me cry first

than, tomorrow

I can come back to me and to my power.

but just now...

let me cry