Nov 14, 2009

pictures from israel & palestine

here you can see few pictures of my journey in Israel and Palestine during the world work seminar @ Nazareth

both cities are mostly Muslims and Christians.

todays learning


for understand the world conflict,
you have to know about you inner conflict.

become to be able to work on your inner world work,
you can effect the field so much.

the edgy parts on the field comes up through the dream and body symptoms, so if we can pick it up internal, we can give the field back the parts, through yourself, without working on the middle of the group.



Nov 2, 2009

we have to include and respect children

children should be included in our future life and actions naturally.
in a society, where the children have no space and no respect , there is no future.

You can find powerful women and happy children in a healthy society


Celebrate the Earth

celebrate the life,

do what you like and have fun.


Sep 30, 2009

missing you



it is too far away
it is too expensive
why I can not visit you more easyly?

I am thinking and hoping
to see you all again

on the same time
my life here is too diffcult to go away

I miss you so much
I miss you all so strongly

I do not know why am I here in another peace of the world?

watching the picture and thinking of you all
hugging and missing you so much


Sep 29, 2009

happy bridge



YOU are the person who makes the decision to cross the happy bridge or not.

It is your way and choice, to go deeper or not to meet the god of truth.

It is YOU and nobody else.

It is YOUR life, and it is so wonderful.


(pic: "Kouhuku bashi" @ Fukushima, a north part of Japan. it means "happy bridge".)

Sep 15, 2009

inner mother

I feel often my "inner mother",
a voice who said again and again,
"it is not good enough".

Everything what I am doing could be better.
After every work, some other work what I could do is popping up in my mind.

critic
pressure
voice who knows much more than me what is better.

after years of work
I can use my critical voices more useful for me
and get more creative information through it.

but sometimes I wish
"please, just be quiet!"

it is enough.

I need more acceptance for what I am doing.
Please mom, say first
"good job!"

than,

you can tell me the next thing.

So I work and work and work hard
more and more,
try to be better
and still have the feeling
" I did nothing".

my inner mother is ancered so deeply inside me.

even I am sitting alone,
I am with my inner mother.

to stop this,
the silent meditation was too silent,
there was too much space for my inner mother's voice.

OSHO's meditation was helpful
it brought me out from this spiral
my body was more busy for shaking and dancing and screaming
after that, the silent arrived.
finally, I could feel peace.

and me?
as a mother?

I realize the inner mother in my son
more and more
this is me and this is not me.

I wish so much to avoid creating more inner mother inside my son but it is so difficult
and how can I stop it before I get free from mine??


Sep 7, 2009

relationships


relationships is a pipeline to feel warmth and connection to the others.

relationships can be also very painful and difficult.

I have both kind of relationships, oh yes, I do!

and how much I have! both of them!

but I know, it is not black and white.

we can feel and life this two different energy in the same time.

and THAT makes our life so interesting, so deep and complicated!

without THAT, it will be flat and boring.

nice and safe but like a plastic.

Depends your decision in that moment,

you can make your moment so juicy or so dry.

It is just your decision.

cheers for human being.

Sep 5, 2009

let me cry


If the pain is not giving enough space,
it turns to anger.

And it will fight for making space for the pain.

Why it is so painful?

Because I truted you.
I believed in you.

I gave you so much from me.
I gave you too much from me.

Much more than, what I could give you.

Disappointed, sad and painful

to realize,

that I saw you in the way
how I wanted to see you.

I gave you so much,
because I wanted so much.

I was blind,
I could not see it then.

After soo long time
after everything is now broken
and nothing is left

I can see it.

It is so painful.
It is so sad.

What I can do now is to cry for the pain
and welcome the new point of view.

let me cry
let me cry

let me be angry

let me be angry with me.

let me cry first

than, tomorrow

I can come back to me and to my power.

but just now...

let me cry


Sep 2, 2009

the beauty of life


in every moment, what ever kind of moment

it is OK how it is

I know, this moment is happening
because it has some special meaning.

Nothing is no-meaning
and everything is no-meaning.

In the different moments with different emotions,
pararell to it deep deep underneath
I feel some water flowing
the water's wave is shining and make curves

the flow of life

it is so beautiful
it is just beautiful.

Aug 31, 2009

comparing


tomorrow, son's school will start.
FINALLY!!!

here, without some network or community where I can go (and feel home), to be just with my son gets me crazy.
Specially after the huge space and lovely friends,
you automatically compare with that situation and
the stress feels like much more.

Yes, "COMPARING".
that's makes my feeling often so complicated.

Where I learned to compare?
Since when, I am comparing myself with the other or with something what I do not have?

In Japanese, we say
"the grass garden from the neighbor looks nicer then mine".

Today, was my comparing day!
that means, I felt very bad and not satisfied.

I used all my skills and knowledge about my bad mood and my anger.

But, I gave up.

I am angry today.

Angry to few specific people,
angry about the situation,
angry about the world
but most angry
I was with myself.

and THAT made me feel much more bad.

I felt, the being supported me
and sent me so many people.

When I thought,
here is nobody to meet,
I got some message that a friend has tomorrow free so we can meet.

Another friend we made an appointment on Friday for lunch.

And I hear a voice
"you see, what YOU have?"

yes, I do.
and now, I feel better.

comparing makes me blind
what I can and what I have.
Who I really am.

(the picture is "OH-card",
a very nice tool to connect with your unique intuition and your own feeling.
I am introducing this unique card in Japan.)

Aug 29, 2009

diving deeper and deeper.....


today, I did not sleep.
the first few days , it was very high
and now, more and more,
with my tiredness and the warm air here in Tokyo
and the loneliness and to get the powerful energy of my son for all day as a only one adult in this tiny little house ( his school will start next month),
I feel some strong heaviness is putting me down,
low mood
low power
no hope
no dream
to the darkness
deep deep down...

I am scared to become depressed and not get out again.

I have that often after my visit in Israel.

What is this?

I have to know more about it.

I want to know more about it.

but don't worry, I am OK.

I know this part inside me.

It is not new, this up and down.

And with process work, I learned to serve the wave of my mood.

I know meditation, that helps me also in difficult times.

It is like the relationship between the ocean and the moon.

I know, it has some clear regular rules there,
but I can not understand it clearly, but I know it and I feel it.

The same feeling with my up and down.
I know, there would be some tendency and some timings
and I understand it more and more,
but still, I just know and I just feel it.

The most dangerous key is to feel isolated.
and lose the hope.

I think, it is not just in my case???

So, I remember the power from the Arab people in Palestine.

In every situation, they said

" no problem"

and find some other way.

The power, the energy, the belive and the strong wish to reach something.

It was amazing.....

How can they????

I saw many connection with the family, with the community, with friends, and with the GOD (ALLAH).

Relationship and connection with the other, and the big connection with something spiritual.

Good to know...

Depends on where you are focused and where you are standing, the view is different.

If I feel very down,
I know I can see just very close to me, and there is no distance.

When I see myself from a distance, or from a different level, different time frame....my scared feeling change a little.

and also, I think, it is for me now important to go deeper and deeper....

what is happening to you is every time with some deep meaning.

every happenings are necessary for your life.

just few moments, few days, few years after, if you see back, you can see it and understand, why it is happening to you.

I know this magic.

Yes, I know.

And the most important awareness for a German culture part in my is taking the thing too seriously....
remember it, remember it.....

"live is too important to be taken seriously",
told my master OSHO.



being in a familiar space


Since I am back in Japan,
I am trying to keep the connection with the people around the world.
It is nice to stay in touch with my friends in different part of the earth.
Also to speak/ write English, German, Swiss-German next to Japanese is a very balanced feeling for me as a third culture kid.

Today, I went to buy some food.
The fridge was empty.

I went with my car to a depo-shop from a very strict co-op and bought there vegetable and some meat for my son ( I am 98% vegetarian).
After that, I went to buy in a usual supermarket some products what I know there is not so much differences and you can get there cheaper.
Than, I went to a Tofu shop, a little old shop owned from a old Japanese man (her wife died last year...so sad) and bought his delicious Tofu with Japanese Basile in it.
This is a speciality from this shop and I love it.

The Japanese Tofu is generally very delicious, but THIS tofu-shop is the best. Also many Japanese is fan from this little shop.

After my walk with my son,
I cooked dinner in my tiny little apartment.
Tofu, and cold Chinese noodles with lots of veggies.



It is nice to have my own car and go around to the shop where you know the quality and who is the product or.

Being in a familiar space,
to know how it works,
you just know it, because you are living here,
it is a comfortable sense.

It is not about love/ hate, or good/ bad,
it is just comfortable.

If I write, "familiar sense",
I remember my body feeling when I was in Switzerland 3 weeks ago.
My mind and my emotion was more tense.
I was nervous. I felt some part in me is very tight and my heart was closed at first.
No wonder, how can I be relaxed to be in a traumatized country, to meet my ex-partner (son's father) and my mom who I also have difficulties to meet???

BUT

I was also aware,
that my body was relaxed.
Come out from a space less, clouded, busy city,
come out from the crazy humid and hot summer in Japan,
my body was very happy to be in Switzerland.
My body knew, remembered how it feels like to be in Switzerland in summer.
If my body could speak, it will say:
"Finally back to the place where I feel familiar to!"

I had to admit, that I know
one part in me was happy that I was back in Switzerland,
and this part in me was not go away from this place of the world. And it is missing here.
The huge place, the dry air, the beautiful view and the clean city.

But, my heart is saying no to it.
My mind is also against it.

I will miss my Tofu,
I will miss my silent what it sometimes lonely in the big city,
I will miss the lovely way
how the teachers are in my son's school
( it is a private school, not a typical Japanese one)
I will miss the view how the people here are for their own.
Yes, I love the silent part what the Japanese people carry inside each of them.

So during this writing, I found out, I have some conflict between one part of my body and my other part?

Missing every time something from the other culture.
I am not looking for a Utopia place to live.
It is just painful, to feel my separation.
Specially, because it is a body feeling based experience.

My body remember the comfortable sense and even after more than 15 years living in Japan,
my body is still missing the Swiss climate.

To know the comfortable feeling, that I can miss it,
it is already a privilege.
To feel it, to be able to explain it, to reach and get it,
this is my rank (power).

Through my touching therapy,
I met so many people who does not know about that feeling.
Who even are not connected with the feeling and their emotions and has no idea what is going on in them self.
So many peoples connection between their mind and the body and their soul are broken.

BUT,
just broken.
It is there. They are connected.
The people's body knows, just, they are not aware of it.

And there are so many people who can not be and stay in their familiar land.
Me ether, even I wish to stay in Switzerland, I lost my long term visa and I have like the other the tourist visa.
Even, when I grow up there and my main part is very Swiss...
Who is making this decision and who has the right to say yes and no to the other,
that you can stay or that they has to go?

I feel some anger about it.
My anger is deep and very slow and silent.

being in a familiar space, is a "rank".
be able to feel it , is also a "rank".

how can I share my rank with the other?

Tokyo, 3am in the morning
still jedleged and my body is living the Israeli time....
....maybe still the Swiss time????



Aug 27, 2009

me, projected as the dead sea


I feel sometimes like the dead sea.
There is too much salt, and there is no fish.
Salt is important for human being, but too much, we do not need.

If I heard that,
I thought , it is like me.

too much salt in the dead sea,
too much feeling inside myself.

I have many feelings, not only nice one.
and yes, human being has feelings
but everybody is trying hardly to feel "light",
not too much feelings.
it is easier to life in our society if you not feel so much.

But I feel so much.
I can not deal with my feelings.
in my younger ages, I ignored my feelings.
I was like a robot, just did what was expected to do.

Than,
I get sick.
I could not eat anymore.
I could not sit anymore.
I could not go to the school.

When I started to open my feelings and looked it,
it was too much.

My life from than was, how to deal with my feelings in this world.

My heart reacted too much to every thing.

I was thinking, and I was feeling.

I get tired of it, and wanted to go.

Say good bye to the world.

But the TAO brought me back.

I could not die.

So I kept on , to looking for and reaching for a way
how I could balance my feeling, here in this world.

It was not easy, my way.

But the answer was simple.

"Just , let it be."

When I could find in myself the space where I could be silent and just give space for the emotions, for the feelings, for the reactions inside me.

I just watching and observing how busy they are moving.

And feel it. the deep deep feeling. and right now, I am amazed how deep a human beings feeling can be.

In my old days, it was a problem.
That I have many feelings and that I could not ignore it,
I thought so long time that it makes my life so hard.
I had a complex that I feel too much.

I criticized myself of it,
I thought, I am wrong in some way, that I feel like that.

And closed my door of my heart.

For so long long time.

But now,
I know how deep the feeling can be.
And how beautiful it is, the feeling of each of us.

I feel, that I got the mission in this life to support people to allow giving space for their feelings.
My whole life was the training for that.
I am now not afraid anymore to feel the deep emotions.
exiting one
beautiful and nice feelings,
but also
anger
loneliness
fear
unknown.....

Since I can see my role in this world,
I also can love my way and my deep feeling inside me.

Maybe that is why I love the dead sea so much.

Yes, it is to salty and there is no fish or life, like the other lakes or oceans.
But there is some uniqueness.
We can flow there on the water.
and the mud are very healing, the water too.
I heard, that the sunshine is also special and the people who are allergy to the sun, they also can be there.

There is space and fun, that you can not find in other places around the world.

And if I apply this view to myself,
to be like me, with this whole deep emotions can maybe also for some people useful.
Maybe also me can be useful for somebody else.

Maybe I should give more space for the lonely feelings, because of the uniqueness??

Cheers for each of us, we all are unique and the only one in this wonderful world.


back home in Tokyo and thinking, where is my home?



The time is flowing.
I am already back in Tokyo.
Unbelievable that one week is over in Israel.
Unbelievable that I was away for more than 3 weeks.

The little tiny apartment in Tokyo was waiting for us.
I feel home and comfortable to have a place which is "mine".
Drive a car which is also "mine".

To understand the language, to know how it works here in this place.
On the same time, I miss so much my friends, the comfortable place what my friends gave me, the big deep warm love what I got from them, and I miss the distance from my "reality"....

no, it is not true, "my reality" is everywhere, anytime is my reality there....
but there is some excuse not to do what I usually have to do.
here, is more connection with the outer world.

I have to pay my bills,
I have to do with my registrations here,
here is my son's school,
at this moment, Japan is where I do my work basically.

And specially in Japan,
I miss a community where I can feel connected.
Specially in Tokyo, I feel so lonely.

I skyped with my friends around the world today.
and they helped me to come out from the "lonely mood".

It is so nice to have the power to connect with people and get support and love from them.
After the chat with many people, my identity as a lonely single mother in Japan switched to the identity as a global international Daya, who is going around the world, and right now, I am sitting in Tokyo and doing my job here.

Through the process work training, I can move more fluently between my identities and moods. That helps me a lot not stuck in one identity in myself.

But I also want say, that sometimes to stay in ONE identity and feel deeply what there is happening is also very important or sometimes useful to get know about myself more deeper.

It is only 2 days since I am back.
Still the feeling, flowing between the cultures...

I hope, that I can keep being and feeling so global and international as I felt in Europe and in Israel.
I wish to keep in contact with writing this weblog and keep writing and thinking in English and in German.
I realized, depends on the language what I am using, I am connected with different "me" and it is so interesting to observe that.

Me, as a third culture kid
I feel much comfortable to have this multi culture balanced life. If I am stacked in a culture, something starts not to work in me. So, it is important to give my multicultural part enough space in my life.

My question for long time was:

HOW?

But this time, I finally could feel myself to be able not separated in peaces and I could feel me as a one being.
I felt that I am me, like I am in Japan, in Switzerland, in Israel...and in Palestine too.

That was a wonderful feeling, not be separated inside me depends the culture where I am.

On the same time, there is now no clear reason why I am living in Tokyo, really. I have to admit, it is for me difficult to find a place where I can feel home.
Maybe... where I have my friends, and where I have to work, there is my home.
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Ich kann nicht schlafen.
Wegen den Zeitunterschied,
mein Koerper lebt immernoch die europaeische Zeit.

Ich ueberlege mir immer wieder, ob es hier ein "Sinn" hat, auf English UND auf Deutsch zu schreiben...

Es tut gut fuer mich.

Als third culture kids
gehe ich mit meinem gemischten Identitaet hin und her.

Aber langsam denke ich mir, wenn das alles (ich meine, das schreiben und so in diesem weblog) als erster fuer mich ist, dann kann ich ja ein bisschen "freier" schreiben?
Ich muss ja nicht jedes mal das gleiche auf Englisch und auf Deutsch schreiben. Die meisten die Deutsch koennen, verstehen ja auch meistens Englisch.

Aber wie immer, ich bin zu ungeduldig mit meinem eigenen Prozess.
Ist dies meine perfektionistische seite von meiner japanischen Seite?
oder ist das die schweizerische perfektionistische Seite?

Nur darueber nachzudenken und meinen Ungeduld zu spueren ist spannend!






Aug 20, 2009

"this is how it is"

I talked today with my friends in Palestine,
they are just 30 minutes away from here.

I have the privilege, to visit him.

But they can not come to visit us, here in this house.

The friends in Israel can not visit them.

They are just 30min away.

To talk with them here was so nice but also painful to feel the reality.

"This is our reality."
"We have to live with what we have."

These was the words, what I got from my friends in Israel and in Palestine.

yes. This is, how it is.

But why is should be like that?


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Ich habe heute mit meine Freunde vom Palestinien telefoniert.

Die sind nur ne halbe Stunde entfernt von hier.

Aber die koennen uns nicht besuchen kommen.

Ich werde die besuchen gehen muessen, und die Freunde hier koennen die Leute dort nicht besuchen gehen.

Auch wenn das Gesetz anders waere, die haetten zu viel Angst.

Das war so schoen mit allen zusammen zu quatschen.

Und trotzdem so schmerzhaft wegen der Realitaet.

"Das ist halt unsere Realitaet. "
"Wir muessen mit den was wir haben klarkommen."
sagten die, von beiden Seiten.

Ja, es ist, wie es ist.

Und trotzdem frage ich mich, warum das so sein muss.



Aug 18, 2009

Israel with my son



I am now in Israel!!

Visiting my friends who I met in world work seminars where I am learning the process oriented conflict facilitation.

It is anbelieveble to realize that I am really here in Israel with my son.

Every time, when I was visiting this country, I missed him and wished that he is also here.

And now, the dream comes true.

I am so happy to introduce him my friends here,
and to watch him how he is catching all this new culture in his world.

Is is so amazing to feel, how easy is here to bring children with you.
In Japan, also in Switzerland, and I guess in US, we have to separate the kids from me, if I have a meeting, or join in a group process.

Yesterday, I could join by the study group meetng from my friends, the process work students here.
My son could also stay in the same room and play with toys.
The process to join there was so organic and so natural, fluend, so easy.

What is all my truggles in Japan to looking for child care, that I can join in a adult meeting?
That I have to decide adult interest or be the mother?
(Of course, it will be maybe different if you live here... who knows?)

Why, the friends here can so be easy and relaxed with my son? Why, my son is so relaxed and trust so quickly my friends here?

I am just amazed how much space and love my friends here in Israel can give me and my son.

Right now, he is playing with the boy from the neighbore.
The boy can speak a little bit English, but my son can not.
But, it seems to work!

The passport control to enter this country was not so easy like the other countries, they have more questions and you can feel the tence from here and I have to think about politics.

But if you are in, you will feel the warm open heart from the people here.

I am also aware, that my friends are also connected with "process work".

A pshychological approach what connects you with you deeper and bigger you, and what connects you with the people and the world.

I hope, I can write once in this Blog about MY explanation about this work and about MY feeling about it.
But here is the official website from my great teacher who developed Process Work:
Arny and Amy Mindell:


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Ich bin in Israel angekommen!!

Ich besuche gerade meine Freunde hier, die habe ich alle in "World Work Seminar" kennengelernt, wo wir durch die Israel- Palestine Konflikte das Processbegleitungs methoden lernen.

Es ist wie ein Traum und schwer zu glauben dass ich wirklich mit meinem Sohn hier bin.

Jedes Mal, wenn ich da alleine komme, vermisse ich natuerlich ihm und stellte mir vor, wie schoen es waere ihn hier dabei zu haben. Aber das ist so schwer mit den Flugkosten und er hat ja auch sein Leben (Schule) in Japan. Ich koennte auch sowieso nicht so viel mit ihm zusammensein, weil ich im Seminare sehr beschaeftigt bin.

Und trotzdem, habe ich mir so fest gewuenscht, mit ihm einmal vorbei zukommen.

Ich wollte dass er diesen Kultur hier "spuert" (und nicht denkt). und so schnell ist mein Traum erfuellt.

Ich bin so happy dass ich ihm meine Freunde hier vorstellen zu koennen, sein existenz ist so oft in unsere Gruppenarbeit vorgekommen. Und die haben so viel von ihm gehoert gehabt.

Es ist wunderschoen, ihm zu beobachten wie er in einem fremden Land und Kultur die ganzen neuen Informationen aufnimmt.

Es ist auch faszinierend, zu spueren, wie einfach hier ist mit Kindern zusammen zu sein, sie ueberall mitnehmen zu koennen.

In Japan und auch in der Schweiz, ich kann es mir auch in USA sehr gut vorstellen, dass es fuer mich persoenlich schwieriger sein, in ein meeting zu haben oder in einem Gruppenarbeit teilzunehmen wenn mein Sohn dabei ist.

Aber gestern konnt ich hier in einer Studenten meeting von meiner Freunde teilnehmen obwohl mein Sohn dabei war. Er hat ganz ruhig in einer anderen Ecke des Zimmers mit Spielwaren beschaeftigt, waehrend ich mit den Freunden Gruppenarbeit gemacht hatte.

Dass ich und mein Sohn dabei teilnahm, war ein sehr natuerliches Process gewesen als waere das selbstverstaendlich.

Ich hab mir gedacht,
was sind eigendlich die ganze Muehe was ich immer in Japan habe jemandem zu finden zu muessen damit ich in einer Meeting teilnehmen kann??
Dass ich immer zwischen zwei Wahlen stehen muss; entweder meine eigene Interesse zu folgen oder die Mutterrolle zu behalten?

Warum koennen die Freunde hier so einfach und locker mit meinem Sohn zusammen sein, obwohl die von der Sprache her gar nicht gegenseitig verstehen koennen?

Warum ist mein Sohn so relaxed und geniesst es hier zu sein?

Was macht es den Unterschied, dass er die Leute hier sofort vertrauen und das Herz oeffnet?

Ich bin einfach hier so fasziniert, wie viel Platz und Liebe die Leute hier in diesem Kultur fuer die Kinder geben koennen.

Er spielt gerade jetzt mit dem Nachbarskind. Der Junge kann ganz wenig Englisch, mein Sohn fast gar nichts. Aber irgendwie schaffen die zwei sich zu verstaendigen.

Die Reisepass Kontrolle zum Eintreten war ziehmlich streng und die wollten ganz viel mehr wissen ueber mich im vergleich zu den anderen Laendern, und man konnte die politische Spannung dieses Landes auch spueren.

Aber wenn du mal drin bist, die Leute hier sind so warmherzig und offen, zumindest mal zu den Gaesten.

Natuerlich bin ich mir bewusst, dass die meisten meiner Freunde mit "Prozess Arbeit " im Verbindung sind.

Das ist eine psychologische Methode, was dich mir deinem tieferen "ICH" verbindet, und was dich mit anderen Menschen und Welt verknuepft.

Ich hoffe, ich kann irgendwann mal darueber mehr schreiben; ueber MEINE Erklaerung ueber dieses Arbeit und was ich dafuer so empfinde und wie ich das fuer mich brauche.

Aber bis dahin, moechte ich Euch die offizielle Web Seite vorstellen von Arny und Amy Mindell, die das Prozess Arbeit entwickelt haben:
Arny and Amy Mindell:

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today's new vocabulary:
facilitation bedeutet auf Deutsch "Processbegleitung"

Aug 17, 2009

test to upload the pictures


how is that?

few shots from the stay in switzerland.

tomorrow, I will fly to Israel and visit my friends there.

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hab den ersten Versuch gemacht, die bilder aufzuzeigen.

Sind einige Bilder aus der Schweiz.

Morgen fliege ich weiter nach Israel und besuche dort meine Freunde.

Freu freu.


first writing: my dream, my challenge

I always had the dream to start a weblog written in English or in German.

But I never did.

Why not?

My "low dream" (the baddest fantasy) was, that I start and can not continue and I could feel very bad.

Like the diaries in my childhood.

I can be too busy, and as a "third culture kid" - born in Japan, but grow up in Switzerland, and went back with 20 years to Japan- and do not have a "mother tongue", I felt never good enough in my English and in German.

Specially, the writings!!

But this summer, spending time in Switzerland for 2 weeks, many process happened and I feel the need to show up more in the world, to write more what I think, share more what I feel.

Not only in Japanese, where I am living right now.

So, I followed my desire and started this blog.

Let's see, how it works.

I learned in my life, just to try, and if some change is needed, just be flexible and do it.

I hope so much, to be connected more with my friends all over the world through this blog and get more connection with the people around the world.

love
daya
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Ich hatte schon lange den Traum, ein weblog anzufangen was auf Englisch oder auf Deutsch (oder auch beides) ist.

Aber ich wagte es nie.

Warum nicht?

Meine schlechteste Vorstellung war, dass ich was anfange und nach kurzer Zeit nicht mehr weitermache und ich mich total schlecht ueber mich fuehlen koennte.

Wie ich in meiner Jungend mit den Tagebuechern hatten.
Ich habe 3 Tage geschrieben, und danach nix mehr.

Ich bin ja auch busy genug.

Und als "third culture kid", geboren in Japan aber aufgewachsen in der Schweiz, und jetzt wieder in Japan lebend,
habe ich keine sogenannte "Muttersprache" wo ich mich sicher fuehle. Ich habe auch nie Englisch in der Schule gelernt, und habe den komplex ueber meine Sprachenkenntnisse.

Vor allem das Schreiben !!

Aber disen Sommer habe ich 2 Wochen in der Schweiz verbracht und etwas grosses hat sich in mir veraendert. Viele Prozesse sind passiert und ich spuere den Drang und auch die Notwendigkeit mehr mich in der Welt zu zeigen. Ich moechte mehr ueber das was ich denke schreiben und mit euch teilen was ich empfinde.

Nicht nur in Japanisch fuer die Leute in Japan.

So habe ich mich entschieden meinem Traum zu folgen und habe endlich diesen Blog angefangen.

Schauen wir mal, wie es wird.

Ich habe in meinem Leben gelernt,
einfach auszuprobieren und wenn es noetig ist flexibel zu aendern.

Ich hoffe so fest, dass ich durch dieses Schreiben mit meinen Freunden aus aller Teil der Welt verbunden bin und auch mehr neue Kontakt finde in der Welt.

love
daya